The Struggle

Tucson 3 / Week 5

This week has been a struggle for me.

We had several disappointments on the house hunting front last week and I just had to take a step back and regroup.

We saw several houses last Sunday afternoon and one of them just popped both for me and Steve.

We wanted to make an offer and our real estate agent contacted the listing agent. She was informed that the house had gone under contract the day before. Our agent said “I have a bit of disappointing news”…

Well that was an understatement for me! I was crushed in my emotions. To have found such a perfect house in our price point, and to have looked it over and imagined that God would give us such a place… only to have it taken away.

There seems to be a repeating theme here as we search for a home and my heart just sank.

We decided to go ahead and make a contingent offer on the home, so if the sale falls through we are next in line. I highly doubt that will happen, but we wanted to leave the door open for God to say yes (if he desires to) in his time.

This has had me struggling with myself all week long. I don’t think I’m quite over the hump either.

Steve and I have had some hard conversations about what we want and were we think God is leading us.

The alternative to not finding a property is to just live out of the RV, which could be fine but Steve has tax benefits from having a permanent living address that we would miss out on.

Also, I would really like to have a home base that we can come back to and rest/restock/have respite from traveling.

This seems to be a great area for us as it’s close to our daughters who are living in Mexico as well as our sons who are living in AZ and CO. The winters will be mild here and Steve seems to be able to get travel nurse jobs here pretty easily.

So my friend, if you would please keep me in your prayers.

Something Steve and I are doing daily is called Finding Christ In The World from The Institute of Jesuit Sources. It’s a 12 week Ignatian retreat in everyday life.

We are on week 5 and one of the readings this week included this quote “When you notice that a desire moves your spirit, hold it up to the Lord for His blessing – or His correcting.”

I am trying to do this in honesty and transparency with the whole house hunt / home base thing. 

Thanks for reading and praying. Steve and I deeply appreciate you journeying along with us!